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|Tuesday, November 4th, 2003|
I dunno why my layout got all fucked up like this. And I'm too lazy to change it back. So, eh. -.-
|Saturday, October 25th, 2003|
If you read my journal, go here.http://www.hrc.org/millionformarriage/index.asp
And sign the petition
"There are more than 1,000 federal protections and responsibilities denied to gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender families because they cannot legally marry in this country. Here are just a few:
* ability to make decisions on a partner's behalf in a medical emergency.
* petition for partner to immigrate.
* up to 12 weeks leave from work to care for a seriously ill partner or parent of a partner.
* parenting responsibilities of children brought into a family through birth, adoption, surrogacy or other means.
* ability to purchase continued health coverage for a domestic partner after the loss of a job."
That's really fucked up. Even if you don't know me, and just happened across my journal, please click that link and sign it. Thanks
|Saturday, October 18th, 2003|
Well, I fucked up again. I was trying to tell Cassandra that she might not be right in a matter, and that there's a chance she could be wrong, and a chance I could be wrong. But she wouldn't even listen to me. She just kept telling me "See. You just don't get it" Like I'm stupid or something. And I lost my temper and stormed out of the room, kinda slammed the door behind me, then locked myself in my room for about 5 minutes.
I feel bad about losing my temper like that, but I'm too much of a wuss to go back in there and apologize.
Fucking hell. I have PSAT tomorrow. I have to get up at 9:00 am. Maybe I just won't go. I don't want to wake up that early, and I'd feel bad leaving a guest here by herself... even if she is mad at me right now. Eh. x.o Whatever. It still feels wrong. And her comfort goes before mine. So......yeah.....
I hope she doesn't hate me, but I wouldn't blame her.
Anyways, here's a good quote.... it really means a lot to me, and I want all of you to really think about it "People kill and are killed because they cling too tightly to what they believe in" In other words, if people were more open minded to others' ideas, less conflicts would arise. I'm not trying to say I'm perfect and don't do any of this stuff.... but I think it's important, and everyone should try to be more open minded. Current Mood: depressed
|Wednesday, October 15th, 2003|
|Today was kinda cool.
Today was cool, a little boring, though. Brianna wasn't there today. Or apparently she was, but then left real early, before I saw her. I think my band is finally getting off the ground. We have everything but a drummer, and the people that do what they do, are good at it... cept I'm a little iffy about Tim's lyric writing ability, but I'm sure he'll get better. The stuff he has so far is pretty good. Didn't really do much at lunch. Or all day for that matter, lol. Today was just kinda mellow. I was pretty happy all day, so that was good.
First real band practice tonight at 7... gonna be pretty cool, I hope. And if Mark can't come, I'll be pissed. I've been trying to think up band names for the better part of this afternoon. So far my best ideas are Power Chord (I think that would be hilarious for a punk band, for those of you that are musically illiterate, a power chord is a chord on guitar... and punk music uses them a lot, if not all the time lol). My other idea so far is American Fraud. So what do you guys think? Any opinions or suggestions? Current Mood: content
|Tuesday, October 14th, 2003|
|Well, today sucked
Got ditched again for 'Brian-Brianna' time. That makes me mad. Especially since they ditched me for alone time when they're not even dating. Wtf? But apparently now, they ARE dating. Great. Now they have a REASON to ditch me. Man, I sure do LOVE MY FRIENDS. >>; Well, I do. Most of them anyways. -.- However I'm angry with CERTAIN PEOPLE RIGHT NOW. Not to name any names... - Cough - Brian and Brianna - Cough -
Lalalalala. I'm thinking about using greatest journal. I've had an account on there for a little while now... havent really used it much, though. o.o; So, um, yeah. Later all. Current Mood: tired
This post was supposed to be made yesterday (Mon, Oct 13th)
Hm. Today was pretty boring. I'd spent the night at Cassandra's last night... spent most of the night clinging to her, which I don't think she appreciated much, but I thank her for at least tolerating it. Lol. She's so awesome. I love being near her. I wish there was something I could do to make her want me. x.o Bleh. Oh well. In the morning, we had to wake up way early... then her Dad took us to McDonald's for breakfast then drove her to school (she had school today and I didnt). So then her Dad took me back to their house... I layed down on her bed at about 7:30 am and woke up like 5 hours later. Lol. I almost decided to stay until she got home from school, but I had some stuff I had to do at home, so I asked her Mom to take me home once she was done eating. Which took a while, cause then some family member of her's (sister, I think) came over and asked if she could charge some things to her sister's credit card. So, yeah, that was kinda annoying. Finally got out of there and home at about 2 pm. Then I went to Asia Cafe with Brian which was good - Drools - Mmmm... Chinese food... lol. So then we were walking to James'.... and all of a sudden my nose started bleeding. Out of nowhere. Bastard nose. I didn't have anything to soak the blood up with, so I had to use my hoodie.... then it went through my hoodie and soaked my hand anyways lol. And while I was soaking the blood up, I wasn't looking... and walked into a fucking tree branch. Lol. x.x It kinda hurt. Then we went to James'... watched Brian and James play Kirby Superstar or whatever for a few then left, trying to get home before my bass lesson... but I'd forgotten that the lesson was actually at 5:30.... I thought I just had to be home by then. x.x Lol. Whoops. So I didnt have to do that today, which was kind of a plus... I still love my bass, but I'm getting kinda tired of lessons. I really need to get my band together. I'm gonna put out ads for a vocalist and a drummer.
Anyone from CO wanna be a vocalist or drummer for a local punk band?
Bleh. I need to go soon. This is taking forever to type up, lol. Tomorrow I need to ask Mark first, though, if he knows anyone who could sing. And if he knows anyone that could play drums... (Mark is the guitarist in my band).
Brianna finally got back from AZ today. She was online for a few min to say she was back... but apparently she'd had a bad flight back and thought the plane was gonna fall apart. Rofl. Poor her. lol. If she doesn't come to school tomorrow, I'll be mad... lol.
Well... I guess that's all for now. Lalalalala. I need a girlfriend/boyfriend. Current Mood: bored
|Saturday, October 11th, 2003|
|Wow. Lot happened. But the post will probably be short
Well, thursday after school I called Cassandra when I got home, and found out that she'd had a terrible day and had started crying during school. x.o Poor Cassandra =(So I called my Dad and asked if he could take me down there so I could keep her company and maybe make her feel better. Since I didn't have school the next day (today [friday]). So at first I got to sit there and watch her babysit three kids.. . which was... uber boring. lol. The kids were annoying. I don't like little kids, they give me headaches.... but then we got to leave at like 8 or so. And went to her house. She ate some dinner then we hung out in her room, listened to music, I tickled her.... the usual stuff. lol. I forget how she found it... but she found the one spot I'm REALLY ticklish... no I won't tell any of you. Yeah. We had lots of fun. =D Lol. At least I did. I think she did, too, though. Cept I couldn't really sleep that night. Dunno why. When I'm sleeping around her.... I can't sleep cause I just wanna stay up and know that I'm near her.....I'd love to have been able to sleep, but I'd rather be up and know she's there. o.o Um, yeah. lol. Friday... Friday was crap except for the fact that I got my permit. Don't wanna go into the bad stuff. I just felt like crap the whole day. Today... today has been alright. Cept I was pissed for a while for a stupid reason I'd rather not go into. Then I went to gamestop and bought Blood Omen 2. Hung with Brian for a while. And I'm supposed to be going over to Cassandra's tonight to spend the night... but I was supposed to leave at 9:30, and she said she'd call first to see if she'd be home or not. But she never called, so I havent left yet. I've called her literally about 10 times and she hasnt picked up once... Wtf is going on? -.- ..... - Sighs -
|Tuesday, October 7th, 2003|
Love this song...SO FUCKING MUCH. o.o Current Mood: happier... but still sad
Cassandra is sick. =( Poor Cassandra. - Sends love to Cassandra so she feels better - =X Current Mood: sad
|Monday, October 6th, 2003|
I hate my life. Current Mood: depressed
|Bored. So I figured I'd write about my weekend
Lesseeeeeeee.... on Friday... Brianna came over, as usual. Hung out with Brian. It felt weird, though. Cause. It was friday and I wasn't doing anything with Cassandra. It felt wrong. But, yeah, after they all left, I can't remember if Cassandra called me, or if I called her, but we wound up doing something. =D Lol. When I got to her house there was this guy named Tim there, he seems pretty cool. I swear he hates me, though. So we sat around for a while, Cassandra TRIED (keyword: tried) to play Quake 3. lol. Then some guy she met over the internet named Alex came over and was gonna take her and I to a movie, and Cassandra's Dad was gonna take tim home. On the way to the movies, since Alex's car was so small, Cassandra had to sit on my lap. =P Bwahahaha. That was a very pleasant car ride. lol. We went to the theater not even knowing what we wanted to see, lol. So we wound up seeing School of Rock. That new movie Jack Black is in. It's awesome. lol. I loved it. And at the theater, Cassandra had this stuffed Sylvester cat thingy, and was all acting like a retard and licking it and drooling on it and shit to creep people out. lol. Didn't work too well, though, cause she kept cracking up. Afterwards we went back to her house. I got to have her sit on my lap again >D Lol. Mmmmmm Cassandra. Lololololololfoleroflerlveroge[kgm4wmver
Current Mood: bored
Ahem. o.o Keyboard went retarded there for a second lol. Hmm... Then I spent the night at her house. We didn't do much. Oh, um. We did.... stuff. That makes people happy even when they aren't. =D You can guess. lol. Then the next day, her Mom drove us to Brighton, we ate at this really good mexican restaurant.... then we randomly showed up at Ryan's house. lol. I couldn't tell if he was actually happy to see us or not. o.o Oh well. Spent some time there... had to sit and watch them kiss over and over again. -.-;; Then we drove back to denver, we picked up her friend David and rented some movies, then we picked up her friend Tim (same one from before), and went to her house. We watched the movies (The Transporter, and Jeepers Creepers). She fell asleep about halfway through The Transporter. I kept falling asleep during Jeepers Creepers. Oh well. They were both ok movies. Cept the fight scenes in The Transporter were, um... I dunno, the guy just looked retarded when he was fighting. Then she woke up after a while and me, her, and her friend Tim went to watch the south park movie in her room. I fell asleep like 20 min into it... and woke up in the morning and had forgotten what I was doing for the last 20 min before I fell asleep lol. I got to sleep next to Cassandra. Yaayyy. lol. Not like I havent done that before. o.o But I hate waking up, so waking up and seeing her face makes it more pleasant. =P Then in the morning, me, her and her Mom went to go get McDonald's Breakfast for everyone. Mmmm.....bacon egg and cheese biscuits... - drools - Yeah, her other friends left pretty soon after that. It turns out they both also like her a lot... and... I think that might be why they dont like me. x.x Cause I kept flirting with her and stuff. - Sighs - Life can be way too complex sometimes. >.< Oh well. Then her and I sat around in her room for most of the rest of the day... then we decided we wanted to go to my house... so she did her homework and I slept on her bed while she did it, so she could come over. At first her parents wouldn't let her, but she begged and her Mom finally said yes >D lol. We wanted to hang out with Brian, but he wasnt even home until like.... 6 or something. Ok. Listen to this... this is fucked up. His Mom drove him ALL THE WAY TO BOULDER so he could see Brianna, and she won't even fucking drive me and Brian to the mall once! (Note: mall=10 minutes. boulder=45 minutes). That's... just wrong. Then we spent most of the rest of the time setting up CS 1.6. Since I hadnt played since 1.6 officially got released.... I had to re-dl steam and such. It was a pain. But it finally finished and all. Yeah. Then the rest of the time was spent with me trying to tell Cassandra how to play. lol.Then we took her home and there was much sadness. =( No Cassandra = ultimate sadness. =/ I miss heerrrrrrr. - cries - Lol. Then I was up until like... midnight, talking to this girl on aim named Dehlia (aloneatmidnight on lj). She's fun to talk to. lol. But because of her I didn't get to bed until way late. lol. DAMN YOU DEHLIA lol jk. so I was really tired and dizzy this morning, so I didn't go to school. My plan for the day was gonna be, go back to bed for a few hours, then wake up and play CS all day. But I wound up sleeping until 2:20 lol. I'm dumb. Heh. I SLEEPT AWAY MY ENTIRE FUCKIN' DAY lol. lolololololol LOL I SAY LOL TOO MUCH LOL o.o;;...So, yeah. Played some CS with Scott, tried to play with Cassandra, but she got discouraged and quit. =( That's pretty much all that's happened today. Wonder what Brianna did after school... since I wasn't there, she didn't come over. Hmmmm... - Shrugs -
I love Thrice. I think I'm gonna see them in concert on the 24th when they come here with Thursday. I'm gonna take Cassandra with me. <3 LOVE FOR CASSANDRA <3333333 lol. Ummm.....that's all... I think... I hope. o.o Cause if I forgot something in a post this long... I'd feel REALLY REALLY REALLY stupid. lol.
Cassandra needs to get home already from dinner so I can talk to her. =(
|Wednesday, October 1st, 2003|
Ummm... yeah... not really much to write about. too tired. I lost my expensive assed calculator I need for school. >.< My Dad won't be happy bout that. Well, hopefully he'll never find out. Bwahahahahaha. It's really odd when you introduce people to each other then they want to fuck. o.o;;.... Um, yeah. Lalalala. Not much happened. Finally got around to buying Friday the 13th Part V. Which kinda sucked, cause the killer wasn't really Jason =( Just some loser in a Jason outfit. - Mumbles - Bought a NIN CD finally... after, what? Two years? I also got this cd by this band called ohGr. It's like... goth techno. o.o I like it. Anyways. I need to go to bed now. >.< Hafta get up on time for once tomorrow. Bastards...
Jeef IS little girl
Don't you love randomness?
"I hate you both! ...all three of you." - James
"It's not from China... it's from hong kong!" - James Current Mood: tired
|Tuesday, September 30th, 2003|
|Sunday, September 28th, 2003|
|I'm kinda confused
Ok, everyone I have a question. Let's say you had a really good friend who made you feel great all the time but now all that person does it depress you? And lets say it's not their fault. Like, let's say you want more from them than they can give? And you realize this is selfish, but because they can't give you this, you're always very depressed around them. And you still admit they're a good person, and you still like them a lot. But you think you'd be better emotionally if you weren't around that person anymore? But you were afraid they would take it personally, and think they're doing something wrong, or that you're being a dick.
If any of you were in this position, what would you do? Current Mood: sad
|Thursday, September 25th, 2003|
Yayayayayay Cassandra called me. And things are good and happy. <3 She doesn't hate me. And I apologized and stuff for being stupid. I think I'm stupid because I need better meds, even though I protest meds. Oh well. YAY
|Tuesday, September 23rd, 2003|
I wanted to call Liz just now... I wanna talk to her, but I don't know what we'd talk about. - Sigh - I miss her. Even if she wasn't like... romantically interested in me ever, I really miss her. She was fun. And I looked up to her... Like, the way she thinks and believes is the closest to being completely non-hypocritical I've ever seen. She really is a great person. I'm so sick of my life. Nothing ever works out. I always fuck things up. Or I'm just stupid in general. Beh. Stupid Stu. Yeah, cause my name's in the word... yeah. =/ lol That means I must be stupid. Current Mood: depressed
|Monday, September 22nd, 2003|
Yaayyyy this song makes me happy
I wanna call her and talk to her... even though I think she hates me now. But it'd be so awkward... But I don't want her to think that I hate her now or something if she doesn't hate me. I dunno. Bleh.
|Sunday, September 21st, 2003|
I think she just sees that it's me calling and doesn't pick up =(
|Saturday, September 20th, 2003|
Today has felt like it's 20 days long... and what do you know... It's the 20th. Current Mood: wa4i8uyfw84u